Merry Christmas! “Merry” is “happy” with a twinkle in it’s eye. Yes. I’m late. I noticed. It took me forever (until the day before Christmas Eve to be exact, the day I’m writing this) to feel Christ’s mass magic this year. It was excruciatingly depressing, really. Didn’t understand what was wrong with me. I’m normally bouncing off the walls with child-like anticipation before the first of December! No matter how hard I tried to be child-like and festive and cheerful, it didn’t come…and I think that was just the problem. I forgot that it was Christmas…got stuck thinking it was Gabimas. I was thinking…At least it’s still Christmas for other people, at least it’s just me stuck in this rut. If I can just keep faking it…Maybe it’ll fix itself. It was around then that Jesus reminded me – Hold on, little one. This is my party. I will handle the festivities. I will make it magical. I want you to put your “streamers” down, forget about your gingerbread house, and talk to me. How would you like it if all your best friends did at your birthday party was decorate and play games? What if they never just sat down to spend time with you and enjoy your company? You wouldn’t like that very much. No, I wouldn’t. So I’m doing as He said. I’m stopping trying to make everything LOOK nice and just letting Him handle the festivities and mood. And now I’m ecstatic to say I’m starting to feel that sweetly familiar child-like joy warming my blood again! I can’t wait to see my family open their presents!! Christmas Day seems so far away now instead of flying towards me like a ball to catch! My spine feels like it’s going to crumble at the slightest wrong movement, but I’m so merry…. It’s Christ’s Mass again!! Joy to the world, the LORD is come! Emmanuel… our God is with us. |